When I say that I am alone
I am talking of the physical presence
I know that I have people who I am constantly in their thoughts
but it is not quite the same as having someone here
to give me a hug when I need it
to just be around when I am bored
and seeking attention from another breathing source

I have been told that I am never alone
but I am ...
I fear sometimes that I am alone much too much

but tonight in a couple of hours
my son will be here
to spend a couple of days
I miss both of my sons
you would think now that it has been over a year
I would be used to living on my own ...
nope, not this girl ...

it must be too many years of living with others
have kind of put me in a spot where I really miss
the noise and clutter that others make ...

I don't like being alone ...