Saturdays ....

I have come to realize that the hardest day of the week for me is Saturday.
Every other day I get numerous calls from friends but on Saturday my phone is unusually silent ...
and I sit by myself and I think
which is not necessarily a good thing ...
I can only go grocery shopping so many times
not everyone is into mall walking
especially so close to Christmas
they want to shop ...
I need to stop the shopping ...
but I need the social contact,
I need the exercise
the getting out in public
but not too crowded a public ...

and I wish that I did not have to rely on others to keep me from feeling blue ...
but that is the way the dice have landed
at this stage of the game any how ...
who knows what the next roll of the dice will bring ...

maybe sunshine and warmth :)
that would be good.
c'mon white cells, boost yourselves will ya!