a thought to ponder ...

I am wondering what makes it so that a person
will grab onto and try to maintain
a relationship with someone that they know is all wrong for them
is it something about the ticking time piece
ticking within our soul
reminding us that there is a reason for our presence on this earth

there are those that would argue and say we are here
to populate the planet ...
well, well done I say
it would seem that some parts are now over populated
and feeding the masses
can no longer be done with a few loaves and some fishes ...

I believe our time here is short
we should make the best of it while we can
staying in an abuseful relationship
is not a good thing
having one person harping continually on the other is not a good thing
unless that makes you happy
and in that case ..
hey, god bless !!!
but no one likes to feel that they are being used
it is not our role in life to be with someone else 24/7 everyday
to center our entire world around that one's persons every whim or desire
in order for a healthy relationship
both partners need to give and take, it can not always go in one direction
they need to bring different things to the table, interests, hobbies, life skills ...
it tends to get pretty boring after awhile when there is nothing left to say
because one of the partners does nothing to enhance their lives outside of their partner.

Life is funny
do we really need to settle
when by opening up our possibilities
we can learn to dance ...

even naked in our own brilliance?

February 19, 2009

I am now the mother of a 27 year old .........
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
where has all the time gone?

time to step up to the plate and take it like a man, life is like that! Get over it ...

I am starting to wonder
what is it that makes some people so pessimestic
that they work so hard
and sabotaging their own lives
and are bent on destroying the lives of others ...

Why is it so difficult
to look at what you have
and if it is not what you want
then go about obtaining what you want
in an acceptable manner ...

No one is born a jerk
that is a learned behaviour
no one is born dissatisfied
that is a learned behaviour

I think it is time to ante up ...
step up to the bar
tell the world that you are a fuck up
but that you have plans and goals to change that
time to stop thinking that the world
and any one you come across
owes you something ...

take responsibility for your own life
your own path,
your own journey
if you are not happy in life
than fix it ...
stop trying to rain on my parade.

here comes the sun ... little darling ...

What a difference a day makes
add a little sunshine
people tend to smile a little more
a little brighter
hopes of spring
fresh on the air ...

thoughts of warm water
lapping at sandy beaches ...
fries at Mackies
strolling down the sand

drinks at patio tables
with umbrellas unfurled
the smells of bbq
grilling burgers
there is nothing that can compare ...

hmmmmmmmmm
just think a little sunshine ...

gimmmmmmeeeeeeeee more!

blessings ....

have I mentioned lately
how much I love my kids ...
I adore them and the men that they have become.

and I think
how I am trully blessed.

GB .... RIP

I tend to feel deeply
I have been told I emote well
that I have good use of the verbal skills that I have aquired
over my many years
I have no issues (now)
of confronting all of the demons that lie in front of me
on my journey through this life

I have been blessed with another chance
pulled from repression
and allowed to dance in the moment
a moment of my choosing and my desire
rather than one selected to best suit others

I have met some incredible people
each with their own special dance
their lights shining ever bright
and their passions radiating from within ...

one such man
passed alone this week ...
his wife was out of town, caring for her mother
this was a man
who always had a smile
perhaps not much money,
but he always had enough ...
he would jump and dance his way over to me
giving the best of hugs,
squeezing me tight so that all the seriousness would be tossed to the wind ...
allowing only happiness and joy to remain
and the opportunity to be silly
and dance to the music
feeling and living de blues ..........

he was too young,
he will always be young
his pony tail boppin'
as he felt the music
course through his veins ...
he knew how to enjoy life
he will be missed ...